findingmyrecovery:

Just wanted to say that even when I’m not posting on here because my health is desperately dangerously awful right now and I’m too depressed to think, I still tweet and post on Instagram if anyone wants update or anything. I’m FindingEmilyE on both. I see a lot of urgent questions that I do want to get to when my brain actually has something in it. I appreciate all the anons about how my blogs have helped you. It keeps me wanting to post and hoping for stabilizing my health so I can focus on the positivity again.

@34 minutes ago with 15 notes
Running out of words to express myself properly and resorting to gestures and body language (usually no one can interpret it)

Running out of words to express myself properly and resorting to gestures and body language (usually no one can interpret it)

@2 weeks ago with 61 notes
#therapy #mental health #self expression #feelings #gif 
When you have your last session with a therapist you liked and have to process that you’re going to miss them

When you have your last session with a therapist you liked and have to process that you’re going to miss them

@2 weeks ago with 102 notes
Pretending to forget about plans so I can avoid people

Pretending to forget about plans so I can avoid people

@3 weeks ago with 271 notes
#social anxiety #anxiety #panic attacks #mental health #introvert #depression 
Realizing liking myself feels way more satisfying to throw in the face of a bully/abuser than destroying myself

Realizing liking myself feels way more satisfying to throw in the face of a bully/abuser than destroying myself

@3 weeks ago with 136 notes
#eating disorder #self harm #recovery #bullying #abuse #gif 

Anonymous said: i used to get scared at night too, i thought there were people under the bed waiting to kill me, but now i share a room with my little brother and it's gotten a lot better. leaving a bit of light on helps too, like leaving the door cracked, and listening ot music helps. i made a playlist called go the eff to sleep with a bunch of lana del rey songs :) hope this helped anyone :)

I often fall asleep with earbuds in :)

@4 weeks ago with 7 notes
Finding a large supply of a safe food

Finding a large supply of a safe food

@4 weeks ago with 203 notes
#eating disorder #ed recovery #recovery #anxiety #fear food #gif 
When therapists don’t allow swearing

When therapists don’t allow swearing

@4 weeks ago with 218 notes
#therapy #christian counseling nightmares #mental health #swearing #gif 

findingmyrecovery:

I’m trying to update, I really am, but the past few weeks my dissociation has been getting worse and worse and I don’t know why. My flashbacks are better, but I still completely detatch and become so blank and vacant. I come on to update and end up staring for ages doing nothing. Since I don’t want to have 0 updates, I think until this improves I might RT other blogs and share things from when I first started my blog

@1 week ago with 35 notes
Getting completely fed up with the pro eating disorder community

Getting completely fed up with the pro eating disorder community

@2 weeks ago with 113 notes
#eating disorders #anorexia #bulimia #horrible #mental illness #mental health #gif 
Figuring out things I must have done while dissociated

Figuring out things I must have done while dissociated

@3 weeks ago with 68 notes
#dissociation #dissociative disorder #trauma #mental illness #mental health #gif 
What I feel like after meals when my body isn’t used to eating right

What I feel like after meals when my body isn’t used to eating right

@3 weeks ago with 122 notes
#eating disorder #recovery #refeeding #ed recovery #gif 

Anonymous said: I kinda want to ask my docter if I have PTSD or anyother mental illness cause by haressment at a young age but since it was so long ago and I can't figure out if it really affects me now I feel kinda stupid/over worrysome for wanting to ask should i?

I think you should ask so you don’t have to wonder and question anymore. The uncertainty is stressful

@4 weeks ago with 7 notes

Anonymous said: I have panic disorder and have been jumpier than usual lately. This hits hard at night, and tho the house isn't empty (live w/parents) I feel lonely and sad but mostly scared. I already have sleeping problems and this doesn't help...what can I do?

My anxiety it typically worse at night too. it’s like it’s when my thoughts kick in strongest. I listen to a lot of guided imagery recordings. Before I sleep I sometimes listen to sleep hypnosis. You can find all sorts of relaxing recordings on youtube. I try to keep myself occupied so I don’t get lost in my head. I also try to stay present and not think about yesterday and what I did wrong then, or tomorrow and what might happen then. Just the moment I’m in and what I need right then

@4 weeks ago with 10 notes
#anxiety #panic attacks #relaxation #calming 
Seeing myself in those awful dressing room mirrors

Seeing myself in those awful dressing room mirrors

@4 weeks ago with 517 notes
#self esteem #body image #eating disorder #recovery #appearance #gif